The sex is getting better, in some sense, but in another, it’s not. She’s trying harder to be outwardly sexual, but she’s only half convincing me that she’s more inwardly sexual. It feels like she’s doing it for me. There are still ways I know we’re off, depths we won’t reach, synchrony we won’t find. We’ll never have the late night sex I crave, or the early morning sex I crave. Her sensitivities will continue to kill her sex drive.
It’s hard to be optimistic. I just know it’s not right in the long term. But it’s hard to admit that to her.