Journal

I feel as if I’m not very drawn to most of the people in my life who could be my friends. The men, especially. I don’t mean to imply that I only can or want to have male friends, but I certainly use my male friends as role models more often than my female friends.

There have even been men who have tried reaching out, tried getting closer, and I feel bad spurning them. But nobody is really drawing my interest as a friend. Am I too picky? Am I just cold? Am I uninterested in new friends, and unable to accept that?

Part of me also worries I’m just too quick to judge. I find reasons not to like people and not to get close.