Journal

Spent time around an unhappy older man tonight. Reminds me of what I don’t want to be. He was clearly frustrated and upset with where he is in his life.

It gives me something to avoid. But how do I avoid it? Is the answer to have as much sex as I can now? To leave nothing to be desired and regretted later on? I have come to think that might be the answer. But I’m certainly not living this way. And obviously thousands of years of human culture and tradition has repeatedly encoded social mores against extreme debauchery, and while some of that is probably regressive, there’s no way that it’s not partly for good reason.